I took up a second job last week. It is making a lot more money, but it's also a lot more trouble. But I guess I can handle it. My grades are doing fine, so far. i just have to hurry up and design these web pages for my web design class. That's kinda hard, since they're due next week. But I guess I pretty much got it all under control. I hope...Pray for me!!!

I haven't been on here in almost a year! So somthing drew me here. I decided to make an entry. Well, I'm back in California. Living in Santa Monica, going to wack as SMHS. I ABSOLUTELY hate this fucking school!!!! I would rather be anywhere but here right now! I have a boyfriend named Marquise. I went to 3rd grade wiht him and we met again through Myspace. We have been going out since August, which is when I got back. I went on a cruise to the Bahamas w/ my mom and the twins, who live with us now. I'm finally a senior, so I'm trying to get me and Quise into a good school. Working a lot at the AMC theatre by my house. Trying my hardest to keep my grades up, but I have 2 c's. I was reading all off my old posts and I was amazed at all the feelings that I had. It's kinda sorta crazy to sit here and think about all of those memories. I still talk to Dayshon once in a while, but he has changed a lot. So has Brandon. I can't help but wonder if maybe being in relationships with me made those two good boys turn into the assholes that they are today. I can't even have a decent convo with either one of them because they are so fucking cold-hearted not. Love does the weirdest things to people. I have not heard a word from my dad since I left on August 9th. I don't know how that's supposed to make me feel...but I gotta go, lunchtime!!!

I'm off punishment now, but I haven't really done anything. I told my dad I would stop talking to Poppy, but I'm not!

Oh Boy!!! Guess what???I' m on punishment again!!!!! This is the fifth time this year. I'm so tired of sitting in that little tiny room all day. Alright, I'll tell you how I got o npunishment, this time. So I have a boyfriend named Poppy, and I have been with him since February. But there is a little problem: he is 23! Okay, what can I say? You can't really help who you fall in love with. I know I wasn't trying to fall for him. So anyways, I had already been on punishment when my dad and my grandma found out about me and him, which was in the beginning of March. So I was on punishment for a month. But I told them I stopped messing with him. So on Friday I went to his house to babysit his son. I guess somebody saw me and told on me because on Saturday morning, my grandmother was yelling at me about it and she said she was going t otell my dad on me. So I was hiding all day Saturday and Sunday because I didn't want my dad to see me and tell me I was on punishment. On Saturday, which is supposed to be me and Ppp's day together every week, I was with my friend Reese all day. Poppy's house caught on fire, so me and him didn't  really see each other. On Sunday at 11 am I went to go see him. He is staying at his friend's house. I went all the way over there and we "chilled" for a while until he had to go to work at like 1. Then I went and spent the day with my friend Ice Cream and her baby. Then I came in the house at like 9pm. My dad was on te porch and he was like where have you been? Why were you gone all day since this morning and you couldnt call and tell nobody where you were at? So then he was like, and I heard you still messing with that boy. I said no i'm not. So he said tell that ni99a I'm gone f*ck him up when I see him. And I'm bout to go to the liquor store right now and see if he's working. So I'm all scared like oh boy, they are gonna fight. But he ended up just saying in the house. So I got on punishment, but I didnt know how long. Then on Tuesday on my way home from school I went to the liquor store to see Poppy. And guess what, my snitch a$$ cousin Ramir saw me and he told on me. So my grandma said I'm on punishment until I go back to California. But they got another thing coming if they think I'm staying in the house for that long. I gotta see my boo. So if they do that, then the last two days before I leave, I'm staying with Poppy and I can get my aunt to drive me to the airport.


MY LIFE IS SOOOO COMPLICATED!!!!!

Alright, last time I took this was in February of last year. So I wanna see how much I have changed.

*Random me*
Survey: Random stuff (cut and paste it, and leave me a comment if you do it)

*PAST*
-kindergarten teacher's name: Mrs. Gretchen
-last word you said: What
-last song you sang: We Belong Together by Mariah
-last thing you laughed at: The boy sitting next to me
-last time you cried: April 1st

.*PRESENT*.
what's in your cd player: Sisqo! Unleash the Dragon
what color socks are you wearing: Blue and green
-what's under your bed: books
-what time did you wake up today: 7:20

.*FUTURE*.
-what is your career going to be: Teacher?
-where are you going to live: Jacksonville,Florida or Bahamas
-what kind of car will you drive: Mustang
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*CURRENT*.
-current hair: in a ponytail
-current clothes: school uniform
-current jewelry: a spongebob watch
-current annoyance: boy sitting next to me keeps singing
-current smell:just me :)
-current longing:Poppy:)
-current desktop picture: None
-current favorite music artist: Me;)
-current book: In Love and War
-current worry: Whether I'm going back to CA or not
-current hate: Reese
-story behind your username: because I'm dark, I guess
-current favorite article of clothing: My new Express jeans
-one person you wish was here right now: Poppy, duh
-line from the last thing you wrote to someone: I want to be on the page.
-i am happiest when: I'm with Poppy
-i feel lonely when: I'm by myself and bored
-favorite authors: Zane, Omar Tyree, Terry McMillan... and others
-do you think too much: i'm always thinking about something (not according to my mom)
-if you could live anywhere in the world, where: The Bahamas, anywhere but here
-famous person you have met: iUmm alot...Destiny's Child, Jermaine Dupri, Raven, B2K, nick Cannon, R. Kelly, and more (can't remember)
-do you have any regrets: sure
-sex or love: love....but i love both. hehe
-favorite coffee: Caramel, Mocha, or Choklit Frapuccino (sp?)
-favorite smell: uuh... Hawaiian Ginger by Calgon and Crush for men, Warm Vanilla Sugar
-what makes you mad: Conceited people and naggers (i.e. my mom)
-what is your best quality: umm.. intelligence, and my smile -blushes-
-are in currently in love/lust: yes, I'm very much in love, with a dash of lust
-what's the craziest thing you have ever done: haha cant say...there's a lot of them
-any bad habits: chewing gum
-do you find it hard to trust people:some people
-last thing you bought yourself: clothes and jewelry
-bath or shower: shower, quick and fun
-favorite season: winter in Jersey, summer in L.A.
-favorite color: purple
-favorite time of day: nighttime
-gold or silver:silver
-any secret crushes:too many to count, but none serious

.*FASHION*.
-how many coats and jackets do you own: Probably like 5
-favorite pants color: denim
-most expensive item of clothing: jeans from Express
-most treasured: all my clothes i guess...

.*YOUR FRIENDS*.
-do your friends know you:yes, the real ones
-what do they tend to be like: boring, or hyper. nothing in between
-can they count on you: yes, most of the time

LAST*.
-last book you read: Love the One You're With
-last movie you saw: Monster-In-Law
-last movie you saw on the big screen: Unleashed
-last show you watched on tv: Girlfriends
-last song you heard: Ma I Don't Love Her by Da Clipse
-last thing you had to drink: Choklit Milk 
-last thing you ate: an Ham and cheese sandwich
-last time you showered: This morning
-last time you laughed: 15 min ago
-last person you hugged: My friend CoCo
-last person you kissed: Poppy
-last person you talked to online:My friend Ameekia
-last person you talked to on the phone: Poppy

.*DO YOU*.
-smoke: Not anymore
-do drugs: Not really 
-drink: maybe...
-sleep with stuffed animals: ya, my teddy
-have a dream that keeps coming back: no, not really
-play an instrument: piano, just a little bit
-believe there is life on other planets:&nbsp;i've never really thought about it....no
-read the newspaper: no
-have any gay or lesbian friends: yeah. Mushy!!! and I have cousins
-believe in miracles:chea
-consider yourself tolerant: very much so
-consider police a friend or foe: Police in general:friends                   LAPD:foes
-like the taste of alchohol: yeah
-have a favorite stooge: Curly!!!
-believe in astrology: kinda sorta
-believe in magic: not really
-pray: no
-go to church: yea
-have any secrets: of course
-have any pets: awww!!! no :(
-go or plan to attened college: i hope so
-talk to stranger: good strangers
-have any piercings: ears count?
-have any tattoos: oh not yet
-hate yourself: are you serious?
-wish on stars:when I'm feeling goofy
-like your handwriting: I guess
-believe in witches: Since I saw "The Craft", yup
-believe in ghosts: Not till I see 1 (jinxing myself)<
-believe in santa: Hell naw
-believe in the easter bunny: ^^
-believe in the tooth fairy: ^^
-have a second family: ya, and a third, forth, fifth
-trust others easily: it depends
-sing in the shower: ya, I'm better than Beyonce...........most of the time!

These are some new pics of me. The first one is from last Saturday. I was high as hell. The bottom 2 are from the day of the talent show. How do I look???

OMG The talent show/fashion show/after-party we had at my school on Friday was so much fun. I was really nervous before I got on the stage then I walked out and all my friends started screaming and stuff. So I sung my song to a boy that was sitting in the chair. It was cool even tho I didn't have any music, I was singing a cappella. The show was off the hook. Then the party was really really crazy. I did a lot of dancing. I think I looked cute. So, I'm happy I was brave enough to get up on the stage. I want to sing at my school's graduation. But I have to see. Alright, gotta go.

Well, I broke up with Brandon, officially. I made a big mistake and ended up solving a big problem caused by that mistake. Now I'm sad that I had to solve the problem that way. Wish I could elaborate, but I can't. :(( Ummm... I'm in this talent show tomorrow night. I'm singing a song or two. Wish me luck! I'm so nervous. Gotta go to the mall and pick up some stuff I need. Some sneakers and some earrings. I already got the outfit. I need to do a lil' something to my hair. I'll make sure to take pics. Oh yeah, JAMES I'M MAD AT YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE FULL OF SHIT AND YOU NEVER CALL ME. MY LONG DISTANCE IS OFF SO I CANT CALL YOUR BLACK ASS. IF YOU DONT CALL ME I'M GOING TO REALLY NOT BE TALKING TO YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS DO THIS SAME THING AND I'M TIRED OF LETTING YOU HURT MY FEELINGS!!!! Okay, back to my entry. I got all A's on my report card! Me and my dad are kinda beefing. I'm mad at him and he's mad at me. Oh well. It's his fault. Besides that, I'm looking forward to going back to L.A.

Alright, so the girl was like Tamesha. Then I said who are you to day-day, she said, his girlfriend. So imagine how I was feeling. So then I said how long you been with him? She said a year. So I was like woah, cuz I was only with him for a week. Then we just sat there for about 20 minutes and the whole time I was just laughing so hard. Then we all left him there by his damn self.  But now I'm still with him. Oh well, I'm dumb and I can't let him go. :(